Saturday, October 25, 2008

Quick Update!

Cele and I are doing G-R-E-A-T! We all (my parents and me and him) went to SC for the day and got home a bit late but overall, GREAT time!

Cele and I have been together 9 months! Wellllll...9 months and 1 day, today! LOL

What more can I tell you? I plan on moving out, either on my own or Cele will move in with me, in about 6 months if all goes as planned.....

Cele is waiting to go back to Mexico to tell Lucia about me and him AFTER I get divorced. Hey, he wants to make SURE I'm divorcing Daniel and can ya blame him? I sure don't.

Cele's uncle is going back to Mexico tomorrow morning. You are in my thoughts and prayers, Mauro and I pray you arrive there safely and return here safely as well. He is supposed to come back next year sometime, prolly around the time Cele returns for 2 months. Butttt that ALL depends on how long the divorce will take.

I still think about Daniel off and on, but hey, I'm only human. And I weigh the Pros and Cons and still Cele seems like a perfect match.

What else can I tell ya? I saw a psychic for the 1st time ever in my life and let me tell ya, SHE IS GOOD! I will update about that later.

2mro I'm seein' my Cele again, so I must rest up for another day of fun tomorrow!

I adore him SO much. He is so gentle, romantic, sweet, considerate and protective. I just love him SO much! It's crazy. Especially since I REALLY did not think me and Cele would get this far. It's terrible to say this, but I REALLY thought Cele was gonna just be a "rebound" to get over Jose.

Well, looks like the Heavens above had a little bit MORE planned for me that I had planned on and hey, I'm SURE AS HECK NOT hatin' it! ;)

That's all for now! Oh--College is going good. Almost finished with my 2 classes. Already took my midterms. Grades are pretty high.

AH--I also lost my job with NRT Insurance! Applying like there's no tomorrow, so basically my "job" now is working for iDictate, a transcription company. It's not HIGH paying money, but it's okay. I also take surveys and get paid 3 bucks soooo I'm doing okay. I applied with other companies so let's keep our fingers crossed, shall we?

I must say though that I truly enjoy NOT working for NRT anymore. They are jerks. But hey, live and learn and like the saying goes: "1 door closes and another one opens."

Friday, October 3, 2008

BIG NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I feel that there is change in the air, and it's going to be change where two or at least one person gets hurt.

Ya see, I had one of my urges that I acted on impulsively and I do NOT know why but for some reason in ALL of my relationships, it always comes back to this one guy. He even told me before "Megan, how come it always comes back to us? We always stay in touch one way or the other and it always comes back to us. Why is this? I think someone up there wants us together."

And I think it could be true.

But I have a problem. I have a HARD time letting go. I have been very confused lately and so as impulsive as I am sometimes, well I called him. I called me ex.

He didn't answer . . .

THE FIRST TIME! After about 5 minutes of calling him and no one answering, I received a call back. But it only rang twice. So I called him back. No answer again. That's fine. Whatever. Maybe he realized it was MY number and hung up quick thinking "I surely don't want to talk to her." I mean it HAS been FIVE months since we last spoke!

About 5 minutes after thinking those thoughts, well my phone rang. I answered it and it was my ex's friend! He goes "Megan! It's been a LONG time since we've chatted! How have you been?"

I told him "Hi, I know! A long time! I have been good. You?" And then he goes "I have been good and Marcial (that's my ex) is in the bathroom and he will call you back after."

Then in the background I hear many Hispanic guys and white guys shouting "Oooh it's Megan," and "Hiiiiiii Megan." I even heard someone shout in Spanish "Marcial loves youuuuu!"

Sheesh. I was stunned. I didn't realize that EVERYONE at Marcial's workplace KNEW about ME! What a shocker!

So me and Marcial's friend hang up and about a 1/2 hour later Marcial calls me! I am surprised because I really did not think he would.

But he did. And we talked for a LONG time. I told him that I heard people in the background of his work shouting my name and that I was surprised about it. He told me "Oh yeah, they know about you. I talk about you."

Talks about ME? Wow. Stunned still lol.


So needless to stay, to make a long blog post shorter. . . . . After talking to Marcial, all the old times and REALLY good times we had came up. He told me that he always feels like something is missing in his life. Like there is a hole in his life. I feel the SAME way! It's really weird. He also told me that sometimes he is alone and cries a little and is sad because he feels really lonely. He told me his friends always tell him he is stupid for letting me go. :)

I know he still loves me and before talking to him, well I didn't think I had feelings for him still, but the truth is? Ugh, I do. And I also have some feelings for Cele as well. Am I "in love" with two people? I don't think so. If I were to weigh the Pros and Cons though, my ex is the better match. And yes, I know. "Megan, he's an ex and exes are exes for a reason."

Welllll technically, we didn't break up because he or I did something wrong. I moved with my parents to here. To Georgia. Marcial even brought up how we would STILL be together if he had not have been stupid and had come with us to Georgia. We invited him to live with us! But hey, ya live and learn right? And it's obvious he is kicking himself for it. Anyways, he told me "So Megan, how many kids do you think we would have right now?"

Okay, now onto poor Cele! :'( *sniffles*


OH GOD! The BIG NEWS. Something TOTALLY unexpected and I have NO idea what I am going to do! Let's just say that this is something that I had NOT planned on!

And no, I'm not having an hijo lol! (I know I scared you all before haha)

Lucia, you know Cele's woman back in Mexico? Welllll she finally has an idea that he is with someone else. Me.

They talked recently and she told him that she had a dream that he was with a gringa. He immediately told her "Oh yeah? Well, it's highly possible that that dream is really a reality."

OMG!

She goes "Why would you say something like that?" And he goes "Because you don't know how to love me."

As far as I know, those were the only words that were spoken between them. I asked if he cried, and he told me no. That he "felt great telling her."

But this is NOT what I planned! It FIGURES it has to happen this way. I realize that I am officially confused and thinking about my ex again and he goes and tells her THIS!

OMG. I don't want to hurt him. I feel like I am obligated to pursue this relationship now, because he could lose me and her.....I don't want him to be alone at the age of 37. I would feel like it was allll my fault.


So I still am just taking day by day. My ex wants me to come up there to NC. He told me "Just make plans, save money and come see me."

Then he informed me "When you come I am NOT letting you leave. You will have to stay here." LOL. We both laughed. He is so funny.

Ah heck, enough about both of them. I don't know WHAT I'm doing. Maybe I am just going to cool it with EVERYONE and be by myself for a bit. But HOW on earth can I break THAT to Cele? Poor, poor Cele! :(